Boy this one is a crazy one to write.
I intended to start the year off strong, as everyone tends to do at the start of the new year, and then time got away from me. Well that’s an understatement really. It’s not that time got away from me it’s that the universe had other plans for my start of 2024.
I got sick in late February which lasted until May 1 in which I finally found the culprit to my illness: Cancer.
It was a big shock, still is really, with there being no history of cancer on either side of my family and for me to get such a rare form of it I’m still trying to process it all while going through recovery while also prepping mentally to under go chemo. I am incredibly lucky that we caught it early, that I listened to myself that this wasn’t normal, that my doctor listened to me, and that things moved so quickly to help me start on the path of getting it removed so I can go into the next phase.
I’ve been home for a little over a week now, spent almost three weeks in the hospital getting surgery + getting healthier, and it’s been going well all things considered. With all of this going on I have had an unexpected amount of free time on my hands which means the mind tends to wander a lot (many things I’ll be unpacking with my therapist) but all of this happening was probably the biggest wake up call from the universe. I’ve spent so much of my time focused on my day job, putting all of my energy into that and I wasn’t spending the necessary time on things that bring me joy.
Don’t get me wrong, I love what I do for work because I get to utilize my creativity in a different way but I leaned in too hard in a direction that looking back was just unhealthy. I have had such a long list of things I want to accomplish for myself and my creative journey that I kept putting on the back burner but no more. Life is too short to be giving 100% of yourself to something that isn’t your own.
So while I’m in recovery I’ve been spending some time getting back into drawing, cross stitching, and all of my creative pursuits and I’m looking forward to sharing more of that with you. But all in all I wanted to give an update on whats been going on with me and to remind you that prioritizing yourself is never a bad thing and you should honestly do it more often.
Take care of yourselves ❤
